“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 

― Marilyn Monroe

Life goes on and on, it never stops. Why doesn't it stop? I need a break from everything that's going on in my life.

Recently, my school had an event and I took part of it. Yay me, participation for some kind of activity (and social skills) is something I lack. It was 3 days, fun-filled with not studying and doing homeworks. I didn't appreciate it back then, since participation means doing stuff, but being back in life filled with normalcy I suddenly miss those times where I can hang out with my friends and laugh.

Now I'm starting my exam week. There's so much to study and so little time. Not to mention I haven't been preparing. Let me just take a moment to drown in my tears.

School started a few weeks ago. I wasn't ready then. I'm still not ready now. Only a few weeks has passed but homeworks have been starting to pile up, it's rather tiring :(. I miss the holidays. I feel like the school spirit hasn't gotten into me yet. Countless hours have I wasted for non- school related stuff, and the thing is, I need to focus more on schoolwork. 

Every year I regretted the fact that I didn't try harder from the start and the truth is no matter how hard I try I'll always feel that because no matter how hard I try there's gonna be a way harder. So now, I'm gonna find this way harder and I'm gonna be proud of myself at the end. I have to believe that. Or else the possibility of it happening will decrease.  

I've decided to post this because people are going to read it. The more people reading this, the more it becomes a promise and as you know, promises needed to be kept. Someone needs to know about this. I feel like if I don't post it, I will get discouraged and eventually, feel that feeling where you just wonder what had gotten wrong. So people reading this, please remind me that I have something to accomplish, and please remember that you should have something to achieve as well! 

Have a nice day! 

Hello again! With a few days of holidays just recently settling in, I can't help but feel really bored already. Every day passed like every other single day. Even though there's all sort of stuff to entertain me I still feel like I need to just spend my holiday lying in my bed, complaining how boring it is, then later, when school starts I'll be asking for more holidays. I've tried to do stuff, like blogging(as you can see it's not a success), and other stuff. I even tried to be more productive(-ish) like signing up at threadless. I'm not really sure how can I go from not having enough time before this holiday to having too much time. If someone decides to read this, thank you very much! I appreciate your effort to go through this (actually pretty short) rant. See you next time. (If there will be a next time)